| Aging isn't fun, but maturing is. |
[19 Nov 2007|11:23am] |
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Now I'm 19 years old. It's weird... somehow I feel different about myself. When people ask how old I am and I answer 19, I feel odd somehow. It's lame, I know, but I can't help it. A few weeks ago when I was still 18 and a man asked how old I was at a bar. I answer truthfully and he said, "Really? Oh, I thought you were older. Not that that matters much anyways. I'm only 20." I guess it gave a reason for people to wonder about me. Was I a barely legal 18 year old or was I a mature one? They wouldn't know unless I told them. I'm scared though. I want to grow up, and I have dreams where I'll be in 5 years, but I wonder if I'll ever get there. My plan is simple; go to school, get a good paying career, and move away to a different city other than Calgary. I've been stuck to southern Alberta my whole life and I want out. I might go to Germany for a year or so... maybe I'll move to Vancouver in the long run. Who knows? I don't really want to have my whole life planned out for me. Anyways, I'm out. I'm going to my same old job that I've had for the last four years... how lame, I know. Much love. <3
SerenaKristaLynn.
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| Best friends are forever. |
[12 Aug 2007|12:47am] |
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I basically am dedicating this post to my bestest friend, Kayla. I love that girl to pieces! All the stuff we've been through and we are still standing by each other through thick and thin. I find it amusing when my "so called friends" go and talk to her about me in a terrible way and how mad they are at me, but can't seem to tell me. I think it's pathetic that they just don't talk to me all by themselves instead of telling Kayla. You know she's gonna talk to me about it eventually and ask me what's up. I'm gonna tell her the truth and she's going to understand both sides... how you won't talk to me because you think I should say sorry and how I think you need to tell me you're mad at me first before I even bother talking to you about what I did. (I don't even really know what I did in the first place. Ha, you need to fill me in before you go and bitch about me to other people.) I'm gonna pretend I don't know you're pissed at me because I don't feel I said anything outta line. If it bothered you that much, then effing talk to me about it if you care about our friendship. Kayla and I had a difficult time when I lied about telling people what she did. I told people, which was a massively bitchy thing to do, but we had some really terrible long four hour phone calls, and I felt horrible and said sorry. We're still kicking ass as best buds, but it's all because we were able to try and fix our problems instead of ignoring them. If I'm in the wrong though, I say sorry no questions asked. Honesty is the best policy! Honestly... it is! Kayla told me that and even though she said our friendship will never be the same again, it still ended up being the same. It bugs me everytime I hear about what happened, but I'm glad we fixed this. Suck it up and tell me you're mad at me and tell me why too. If our friendship is that important to you, then we'll be friends after it no matter what! <3
SerenaKristaLynn
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| My computer went psycho. |
[03 Aug 2007|07:20am] |
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Well, this post is basically all in the title. I haven't been on in a week and I my computer went psycho because our virus scan blocked the internet completely. It's fixed though, so we are back up and running. Geocities deleted my website and all my hard work to get my webbie back running went down the drain. I'm trying to find a different server. On the more personal side, I look good today. Basically amazing... man oh man, my buddies brother is going to kick himself in the ass for not every asking me out. Mwahahaha! Yeah, he's back to visit his family and my goal is to look gorgeous and make him jealous. Bahaha, not that you need to know that. I'm out.
SerenaKristaLynn
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| Stuff is coming together. |
[28 Jul 2007|01:24am] |
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My website is coming together again... slowly. I'm pretty stoked to get back to my old self, and meet my old pals in the internet world. Meh, lets keep this entry short. Much love! <3
SerenaKristaLynn
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| Rebirth. |
[25 Jul 2007|09:50am] |
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I was formally know online as Sabby; a nickname that stuck with me since grade six and I had no reason to get rid of. But because of recent events, I've decided on a rebirth for my own good. I got caught up in the grade twelve scene, like every high school teenager would. I didn't stay true to my roots. I got lost in the drama and abandoned my online friends. This I regret.
The definition of rebirth is a new or second birth: the rebirth of the soul. I needed this more than anything. When I graduated from high school, I never understood how lost I was. I still barely know what I'm doing with my life, but one thing I do know is how much I've changed. It's scary; it brings chills to my spine. The first step is acceptance. I've admitted I've changed and now I got to do a lifestyle rebirth from the immature Sabby, to a more understanding SerenaKristaLynn. I'll keep this entry short.
SerenaKristaLynn is the rebirth.
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